It's finally and actually happening. Just when I thought my high school class wouldn't have a reunion, low and behold a website is born. I think it's October 7th. Damn!! I only have 4 months to try to drop some of this weight. I actually lost weight right out of high school and packed it on from then.
I've gotten in touch with some great old friends from school on myspace and they know what I look like now but it's all the people I never knew that will see me and think, "man she's huge!" I am who I am, and they may not give a shit about what I look like I just know that if I saw someone who use to be pretty and then balloon 90lbs since high school, I'd be thinkin something too. It's quite natural actually. We all size each other up at reunions but I just imagined me walking in skinny and prettier than I was in high school. Oh well....I need to move on from that image.
I think it is time for me to start worring about my weight again though. Not for some stupid reunion but for myself. You know all the reasons from past posts, I won't get into that now.I do want to go back to my Dr. and see if I can get some medicated help. I have no energy, want to sleep all the time and have anxiety issues that make it so I can't sleep well. I need 10 hours of sleep just to get a healthy 8 hours in. On top of that, I feel tired all day like I want to go back to sleep at any moment. I think I'm on a low dose of the meds I need and need to either increase them or change them. Chemical depression is a family trait and its just something I'll probably need forever. I just need to find the right balance for me. Plus, being on a good ADD med. can help increase my motivation and give me a little push. I really need that push, especially when it comes to the exercising and eating better.
I am really happy with work lately even though it can get overwhelming. I had a review of my files (an audit actually) and the lady said she was very impressed with them. My boss, blushing, turned to her and said.."Can you believe she's still new to this? She's doing very well!" She even nominated me for a "Rookie" administrative award. I didn't get it but it shows how proud she is of me and I really need that sometimes.
Summer is officially here and that means the heat is fully underway. It's been so hot outside, and humid. I can't wait to get to a pool at some point!
I've gotten in touch with some great old friends from school on myspace and they know what I look like now but it's all the people I never knew that will see me and think, "man she's huge!" I am who I am, and they may not give a shit about what I look like I just know that if I saw someone who use to be pretty and then balloon 90lbs since high school, I'd be thinkin something too. It's quite natural actually. We all size each other up at reunions but I just imagined me walking in skinny and prettier than I was in high school. Oh well....I need to move on from that image.
I think it is time for me to start worring about my weight again though. Not for some stupid reunion but for myself. You know all the reasons from past posts, I won't get into that now.I do want to go back to my Dr. and see if I can get some medicated help. I have no energy, want to sleep all the time and have anxiety issues that make it so I can't sleep well. I need 10 hours of sleep just to get a healthy 8 hours in. On top of that, I feel tired all day like I want to go back to sleep at any moment. I think I'm on a low dose of the meds I need and need to either increase them or change them. Chemical depression is a family trait and its just something I'll probably need forever. I just need to find the right balance for me. Plus, being on a good ADD med. can help increase my motivation and give me a little push. I really need that push, especially when it comes to the exercising and eating better.
I am really happy with work lately even though it can get overwhelming. I had a review of my files (an audit actually) and the lady said she was very impressed with them. My boss, blushing, turned to her and said.."Can you believe she's still new to this? She's doing very well!" She even nominated me for a "Rookie" administrative award. I didn't get it but it shows how proud she is of me and I really need that sometimes.
Summer is officially here and that means the heat is fully underway. It's been so hot outside, and humid. I can't wait to get to a pool at some point!
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