Amazing

I had so much fun Saturday night seeing Cliff and Jim play! I've heard Jim mention Cliff quite a few times and remembered that he met him up in Rehoboth but I have never met him. When Jim told Greg that he wanted some support for Cliff in Gaithersburg, we called up friends and brought a semi-crowd there, plopped them next to the one-man band and drank. We'd never been to Dogfish Head before but it was a lot of fun. A little too expensive to go to often but fun non-the-less.

I was so in awe watching Jim sing up there. He was absolutely Amazing! Jim, I always knew you could sing but I don't remember ever hearing you. You had people coming into the place stop to listen and watch before they sat down. I mean, you had a nice crowd going. I can't wait to hear you possibly open up for your friend's band. And, I also can't wait to hear Jason sing. We'll definately be there for both of those.

Greg and I recently bought a bunch of movies and are in the midst of watching them. I saw Bring it on last night and watched Stepford Wives earlier in the day. I liked both of those movies. Greg didn't though. They were sort of girly movies I guess. He liked Drumline, which I didn't watch cause I was still sleeping at noon yesterday.

I'm looking forward to the party Sat. Not looking forward to a week's worth of work before we get to it though. I just want the weekend to be here already, and SUMMER PLEASE!

Good times, sunshine and summertime!

Wow, so much going on already. I'm really looking forward to our party coming up. A lot of people can't make it but we'll make the best of it, we always do. I thought it was really sweet of mom to try to get together for Greg's birthday too..like a dinner or something. She's really trying and I really appreciate that.

We're getting flood lights put out back just for the party but we've been wanting them for awhile. Dan and Jim have very big things coming up. I'm so happy for both of you and I know the things you are doing will be life changing experiences and that always calls for a party! We need to celebrate..Dan, before you go, and Jim, when you come back.

Not much else going on but feeling happy and I love to be happy. I heard "Friday I'm in love" on the radio and couldn't help but smile. I always smile during that song and sing it really loud. It's a happy song and I love to be happy!

:)

Shopping for me!

Greg and I were bored yesterday and decided to go to the Hagerstown Prime Outlets where I chose to be on a mission for clothes for myself. I rarely buy myself clothes, 1. Because I chose to spend my money on other things so I don't have any left over for those kinds of necessities, and 2. Because it's really no fun for me. But, I dragged Greg along to every clothes store they had with no luck with the stores that only go up to a size 12 or *gasp* a 14! But they did have a few plus size stores or plus size sections in stores that I was able to shop in. After trying on about 100 tops and pants, I walked away with 2 shirts that I was pleased with.

After that mission was over and we were ready to go home, I decided to hit one more store near home that I usualy have at least a little bit of luck in. I actually had fun there with mild frustrations. I came home with 2 pants and 5 tops altogether for the day. Not bad for a frustrating shopping experience.

That night when Greg wanted McDonalds, I got a salad. Salads are looking awefully good to me lately.

Thoughts on thoughts

I've been reading a little bit at a time of Wicked, the book Dan and Matt got me for christmas. I love it! I'm at a part about halfway through where Elphaba is discussing and debating scientific findings from the goat. These kids are about 20ish I think and still in the beginning of college. They are using these words I dont know and discussing things that if I were in that situation, I might not care about. It just brings up to me the fact that I never like to debate or to discuss things at length. My attention span doesn't allow me to. Sure, I have opinions and find things interesting but I couldn't write a report about it or give information from my mind off of things I just read or of research I've done because I wouldn't remember them. Alright I shouldn't say that I couldn't do those things, it would just be difficult so I chose not to. This is frustrating and something that has frustrated me since I started to learn anything.

I know I'm smart and I know I'm capable. My brothers are great with debating and discussing and its something that skipped over me. A lot of my not debating stems from the feeling that I just don't have an opinion. I'm fine going on with my life and letting that topic go off on a tangent without me being involved. If its something I care about deeply, I'll have an opinion but feel like there's nothing I can do about it so why bother. Why am I like this? I'm very laid back too. Almost too laid back. The world can keep moving and I'm happy staying still. Why is that?

Grrr. Some people look up to me for feeling that way and tell me, "You're lucky that doesn't bother you because it bothers me and I can't stop thinking about it!" My life motto is a shrug of the shoulder. Oh well. Life keeps moving. Can't let it get you down. Of course this goes against my last post. I should listen to my own advice.

See, this is why I labeled my blog the way I did. My mind wanders in all kinds of different directions. I find myself very interesting. I can make myself laugh (which I love to laugh by the way). I need some fun hobbies so I have things to be passionate about. Gotta get to that.

Just a side note.

Lately I've been trying harder than I did before with trying to keep in touch with friends. I try to send an email or something and then they don't write back. I don't understand it. Then I start thinking to myself, What did I do? Are they mad at me? Did I do something wrong? It's usually just that they're busy but I do worry about those things. I wish I wouldn't. I guess its because I havent talked to them in awhile and I would like to. I think I hold onto things to much.

Inman Come back!

This is not good. We have some dental bones at home so we gotta check them out to make sure we're not giving them something that's going to kill them. First it was the Diamond brand dog and cat food that was making pet's sick and now its a bone that seems to be killing dogs. What's next?

Last night was a relaxing night where I stayed home and watched Cold Mountain. I must say I really liked that movie a lot and I'm glad I watched it by myself because I know Greg would not have enjoyed it. It had the slow start and mushy love story I love and he hates. The first thing I noticed about that movie which sort of ruined it for me was that Nicole Kidman has had so much plastic surgery done to her face that her eyes permanently slant upward as if she has a really tight pony tale pressing her skin up and back. It's pretty hideous. Otherwise I think she's gorgeous. I've always loved her as an actress. I don't mind plastic surgery at all as long as you can't tell it's been done. Her face was very shiny too as if she's had major botox. I don't mind the occassion lip plump, breast augmentation, or some face fixings but some of the celebs go way overboard with it and its sad because they were beautiful (for the most part) to begin with. Just an opinion.

Greg and I have been trying to eat better but with the occassional bad meal. We're trying to get it to a point where we're not eating bad as much then take it down even more to where we're rarely eating bad at all. Whenever we go cold turkey into eating good it never works.

Now onto my day. My boss said she's going to try to get me an award called a "Quality step increase" which is a within-grade increase. Basically this means more pay per year and per paycheck rather than a cash award upfront. Its better in the long run. She really appreciates me and I love that about her!

Sad Sam says I love you.

This is the guy Greg had delivered to me for Valentines day. He also got me 3 roses. I am so happy. They are beautiful! Happy Valentines Day!

Let the Valentines Day Celebrations begin

I love Valentines day and not only cause I'm in love but because it's my brother's birthday too!

This snow was nice and all but why oh why did it have to come on a weekand! Couldn't do much fun stuff (although laying around is always fun to me) and we didn't get a dime off work! That's what snow is all about...time off!

I loved spending time at Union Station with the fam for Dan's birthday. I always have a great time discussing little Dan, Karri and Jim stories too. I get a kick out of telling people I tried to throw a huge rock over Dan's head and missed the air around it. Poor Dan. The brunt of all my anger and imagination. I especially love the little Dan in a cast photo's and how I use to make fun of his laugh, crooked mouth, and broken foot all at the same time and he loved it!

Happy Birthday Dan! I hope you enjoy every bit of it!

Snow brings pretty daisys.

I am so in the mood for spring and summer! I have these butterflies in my stomach and keep thinking about fun times and sleeveless shirts. When this happens, I think back to old friends once again and remember good times. I remember Planet X and neufchatel cheese, Melrose Place, summer concerts, drives to no where in particular just to feel the summer breeze in my face hanging a cigarette out the window, Six Flags with Greg and Moe, and walks in the park with the puppies.

I get this way because for so long I had summers off from school. Now that I'm working I don't have that free time to do those things whenever I wanted to but the weather still takes me back. I love happy thoughts! I'm on cloud 9 right now.

I NEED A VACATION! Can I go back to my honeymoon again? Now that was a blast!

I need willpower, need it bad!! Can I borrow some?

Been looking in the mirror and at pics again lately and need to lose this weight. I say it and say it but its so hard to do. And it's really hard for me to stick with things. Like I said before, I don't have a choice really. Its not the looks that I'm worried about as much, its my health. I have potential to live a long and healthy life if I do the simple things like exercising and eating better. When I went to my doc recently she gave me a "hmph" when she asked if I've been exercising and I told her I hadn't. There's no excuse according to her and she's right. My problem is, I make myself so busy lately that I'm so tired when I get home. I'm working a lot of overtime because I can lately and take the money to pay off old student loans and some other old debt.

I need to put my foot down and do what's right. Winter is almost over, spring will be here and I'll want to go out more and do things but I huff and puff and feel so tired when I do or I wear tons of clothes to hide myself. Thats no way to live. I want to be happy in my own skin.

That's it Karri!! NO MORE BAD STUFF! NO MORE LAYING AROUND WHEN I COULD DO 20 MIN'S OF EXERCISE A DAY!!! I have an exercise bike I'll use it! Like Jim said, I need to tackle one thing at a time. I need to exercise 20 mins a day at least.

The saga will continue and hopefully with a lower number on the scale. Greg and I both don't want our weight to be an issue anymore. I know he'll walk with me if I would just make myself do it.
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In other news, I came into work late today and when I let the dogs out I heard growls as if they were attacking an animal. I run outside in the cold, barefoot and pull Maverick and Emmi off of this tiny dog. He was scared and shaking so after I put them inside, I went to see his tag and pet him but he snapped at me. My feet were numb but I wanted to help him when I heard a young girl calling for him. She came to get him and said, "This is the second time he's done this to me." I told her to make sure he's ok since my dogs weren't happy with him in thier yard and she took a quick look and didn't seem to care. As if he deserved it. What a mean owner. Just a tiny dog, scared, who got loose. Just a side note. I need a "Beware of Dogs" sign for real on my fence. I was mad at them for being so mean to another dog.

I'm in a great mood and happy but I'm feeling a bit of depression lately from the weight and the change in weather (I think thats whats causing it). I'm feeling sort of blah lately and a bit overwhelmed with work. Things will get better and I know I can clean up about 70% of the depression by exercising and getting rid of some of this weight.

It will come.

Man, I feel like a woman!

First of all, let me explain my picture. This was my Bachelorette party last June when my friends (along with Greg's help since he thought it was hilarious) decided to dress me up in pink and make me carry around a giant penis with a face around DC all night long. I had the whole get-up, shot glass around my neck, pink star glasses, a floral bridal veil, a bra to wear on the outside of my outfit, a feather boa, and pink fuzzy handcuffs. They had fun can you tell? They all wore black tops with jeans and a pink lei each. It was a really good time I must say. Check out my myspace profile for a few pics from that evening.

Anyway. Today, I have been trying to find the perfect painting for my office. Once I have that I can chose a color to go in here. It's hard to find a painting I like that isn't nude or have a drink in it. Why, I don't know!! So I'm going abstract with no real statement. But I'm not sure of what just yet.

Not much else to report other than the fact that I'm tired and I'm looking forward to finishing our basement at some point!

Ta-ta for now!

Finding old Friends

There is nothing better than finding old friends you once shared a lot with. Just in the past two weeks, Monica R. called me out of the blue for my birthday, Lauren wrote the cutest comment on my My Space thingy, I found Jenny and Liz through My Space and sent them a message, and Maria wrote me a message asking how I was doing.

Plus I have Rita calling me a few times a week just checking on me and saying she misses hanging out with me and Greg.

I feel so loved. I also had to say goodbye to a good friend who moved to Georgia (and yes I cried cause we hang out with him 3 times a week at least and now we aren't going to see him much).

I need to be better at keeping in touch with people. I may not have lost these friends in the first place if I would have taken the time to pick up the phone and make a date. I've always been terrible at it and I hope they realize that it wasn't anything personal towards them but it was my lack of trying that kept me from seeing them.

...and I want to paint it black

Heheheh I don't remember the first part of the song. I am actually painting a piece of furniture black to fit in our bedroom as a tv stand. Kinda fun but also very cold outside for the job. My dogs are laying behind me growling at each other and it sounds like they're farting :o.

Not much going on other than chillin on this fine superbowl sunday. We had our carpets cleaned (hey I know this isn't fun to read about but when you have dogs that are messy and the carpets are now all shiny and new, its pretty exciting. It's like the house is new again!).

Hopefully I have more exciting news in the future. I really hope to be able to get to Dan and Matt's party on the 11th and I know Holly is having a baby's first birthday earlier that day too. What can go wrong with a day of partying!

Cough, hack

Not feeling too good today but I'm here.

I need a new avatar pic.

Thats all I have to say this morning.