Health is a wonderful thing

Well this is day 3 of eating better and exercising. I exercised for 40 minutes again last night and did some more arm weights. Tonight I'll either walk or bike again for another 40 total minutes and do some leg weight exercises. Funny thing is, I'm not obsessing quite as much as I was the last time. It is on my mind constantly but I'm not thinking about it as much. I had cooked veggies for dinner last night and a salad for lunch today with chicken chili soup. I'm actually liking the salads. Someone once told me she lost a ton of weight on salads alone for lunches and dinners. I only like Caesar or barbeque dressing so I would get sick of that fast but it's going good so far.

I'm glad I'm not stopping this time even if I have a bad eating day. I'll pick up and keep going.

Wish me luck!

Changes

Well...I just tried changing my template so, hopefully, it will find it's way to the internet world. I don't know why I can't see it right away.

But I do have some great news! That is, I am working on this whole issue I call weight again. I know...some of you are probably sick of the stop and start but I gotta keep trying until I accomplish this amazing feat.

I haven't krept all the way back up to my starting weight from before but I'm close. It's hard to look around me and see hereditary problem after hereditary problem eat away at most of my family and they're sneaking my way any year now. If I can get myself to do the healthy things a person should do, I might be able to fight off those demons longer than I would if I continued on the way I have been.

That said, if I eat out, I eat salads or chicken and veggies. If I eat in I eat grilled veggies (the way Dan made them for me...yes I actually went out and bought zucchini, squash and red pepper), salad, or sandwiches on whole wheat with orange juice. I actually exercised on the recumbant bike for 40 min's and did about 10 minutes of arm and leg exercise with 2-3lb weights last night while watching Monster-in-Law.

This is the beginning....again....lets make it happen!

Rest

This weekend was packed with me working Friday and Saturday (when I was supposed to be off) and going to a bridal shower Sunday so I stayed home yesterday. It was nice to sleep in and relax. I just needed it.

I stopped by John's to pick Greg up Sunday and met some very cool, very nice people so I'm looking forward to hanging out with them hopefully soon.

I'm also very excited to see two of our friends get married in 2 weeks. They are very cute together and I'm very happy for them. It's funny how a year ago she caught the bouquet and he caught the garter at my wedding. It would be a perfect story if thats how they met but they've been together a while so I can't say that...

Off to another week and looking forward to the 4th of July holiday next week.

1 year down

Today is our 1 year wedding anniversary! It's hard to believe a year has gone by since then and its also hard to believe we've been together for 8 years now (that anniversary was May 19th). We are still very much in love and still act just like newlyweds! Its funny because when we're apart at all (like we were this past weekend) I can't stop thinking about him and look at my phone to see if he's called. I was just looking at some of the wedding pictures last night. I will say, even though it was stressful coming up to our wedding day, it turned out beautiful and I wouldn't change a thing from that day, except maybe making sure the DJ was on time and not forgetting the rings but it turned out great! Everyone looked amazing and we have wonderful pictures to capture all of that. I was just thinking how nice it would be to frame some of my favorites and put them up on some of our bare walls going up the stairs. We really did get some great family shots as well!

HAPPY ANNIVERSARY GREG!

And, today marks another very special occassion and that is my brother's birthday! We had dinner with Jim, mom, Aunt Patty, Dan, Greg and Lia yesterday but today is the official day.

HAPPY BIRTHDAY JIM!

Also, yesterday was father's day and Dan and I drove up to Delaware Friday night and came back Sunday. We had such a great weekend and Saturday couldn't have been more perfect. We went out to brunch on Saturday and Vanilla Ice happened to walk right by us and sat about 2 tables over. So funny. I know I know, he doesn't go by that anymore but how funny is that! Lia and Jim confirmed that he was playing up that way this past weekend because they had seen signs for him while they were up there last weekend.

Then, we went to the beach at about 2:30 where we laid out a bit and swam in the ocean. I had such a great time with Dan! We left the beach and went to Giant where Dan ran into his boss and I started bashing Loretta Lynn's facelift in line at the cash register, when a man behind us said.."You don't mean that do you? That's my mom's cousin!" He didnt' seem to take too much offense to it but proceeded to tell us how he went to school and was close with Ashley Judd and is fairly close with his mom's cousin, Loretta Lynn. So strange! But I did feel like shit for bashing her.

Then, we swam in the pool for a bit where I showed Dan how to swim and do twirls under the water. Then we had dinner with Dad (so good) and went out for a few drinks at a local gay bar right off the boardwalk. It was a great time!

Sunday, however, I woke up with such a puffy face, I didn't recogize myself and could hardly see right away. So embarrasing. It's still a little puffy today but no where near as bad. I have no clue how I got that but Mom suggested I could be allergic to the sun or something. I've always had problems where I blister up easily but I don't ever remember puffing up like that. I went to church like that where I met a lot of dad's friends, then went out to a brunch buffet, gave dad his gifts, and drove home.

HAPPY FATHER'S DAY DAD!

I hope you had a great time too!

I'll miss Dan and I hope we have some more time together before he goes. At least one more little visit together before his going away party would be nice. I know he's busy.

Now it's back to work and I really don't wanna.

It's finally and actually happening. Just when I thought my high school class wouldn't have a reunion, low and behold a website is born. I think it's October 7th. Damn!! I only have 4 months to try to drop some of this weight. I actually lost weight right out of high school and packed it on from then.

I've gotten in touch with some great old friends from school on myspace and they know what I look like now but it's all the people I never knew that will see me and think, "man she's huge!" I am who I am, and they may not give a shit about what I look like I just know that if I saw someone who use to be pretty and then balloon 90lbs since high school, I'd be thinkin something too. It's quite natural actually. We all size each other up at reunions but I just imagined me walking in skinny and prettier than I was in high school. Oh well....I need to move on from that image.

I think it is time for me to start worring about my weight again though. Not for some stupid reunion but for myself. You know all the reasons from past posts, I won't get into that now.I do want to go back to my Dr. and see if I can get some medicated help. I have no energy, want to sleep all the time and have anxiety issues that make it so I can't sleep well. I need 10 hours of sleep just to get a healthy 8 hours in. On top of that, I feel tired all day like I want to go back to sleep at any moment. I think I'm on a low dose of the meds I need and need to either increase them or change them. Chemical depression is a family trait and its just something I'll probably need forever. I just need to find the right balance for me. Plus, being on a good ADD med. can help increase my motivation and give me a little push. I really need that push, especially when it comes to the exercising and eating better.

I am really happy with work lately even though it can get overwhelming. I had a review of my files (an audit actually) and the lady said she was very impressed with them. My boss, blushing, turned to her and said.."Can you believe she's still new to this? She's doing very well!" She even nominated me for a "Rookie" administrative award. I didn't get it but it shows how proud she is of me and I really need that sometimes.

Summer is officially here and that means the heat is fully underway. It's been so hot outside, and humid. I can't wait to get to a pool at some point!